Hoping...

well.. here we r again... i can't take diz no more.. 

everyday.. arguing about the same thing.. (dye yg start dlu!) yahhh.. u must not believe this. but..face it! u loosing my trust dear.. (sangat2!!) why must it be this way?? i'm not choosing it to be diz way.. u choose it!! its obviously hard for me to take this.. when every word that came out from ur mouth.. ape yg maen kt fikiran ni- "haihhhh.. leh caye ke?? urrghhhhh!!!! please.. end all these rubbish now!! its hard when u do love someone.. but U DON'T TRUST HIM wit all ur heart.. everything about him.. there must be a doubt!! i don't want this to continue... please stop this.. n please make me trust u back.. like i always did..

Ya Allah.. tunjuk kan aku jalan Mu yg lurus..jalan yang Kau redhai dan jauhi aku dari kesesatan. Dan kurniakan lah aku petunjuk dan hidayah Mu..

Why you........??

You used to be the person who i really love.. really care.. n adore most.. you love me in your own way.. u make me fall deeply in love wit you.. you put a really BIG smile on my face with your "lawak sengal".. you never giv up when i don't treat u well at the first time.. the way u treat me... it was perfect.. u make me think u r da rite person for me..

u r da only one dat can treat my "kiddie" things.. da one dat can tell me : "Ye, b sayang syg tiap2 ary..tiap2 saat..tiap2 detik" when i asked stupid question like: "B! arinie b cyg syg ta? byk mne b cyg syg?" n when i make u sad.. again.. i asked stupid question :"B..cyg b kt syg ade bkurank ta?? still same ta mcm b mule2 cyg syg??" n u noe wut?? u never pissed off when i asked u those kind of question n u do reply me :" ye.. mesty la b syg uchuk manje b!!" =) ehee...n u really put BIG SMILE on my face!! - i still remember this note, the one that i posted. 

Theres a lot of things i've been dreaming of.. living together wit u.. making breakfast for u.. kiss u goodbye when u going to work.. spending tea time together at the back yard.. n now u make all my dreams ppuuuffffff!

when i found out bout "that".. it really hurts me a lot.. i can't afford losing a person like u.. n u make the love turn up to be HATE... hate u... hate u.. at the very first second i knew bout "that".. only that what i felt.. HATE.. cepat kn kte nk benci org?? naahhh.. u r wrong.. it only last for a few seconds.. yesss!! i do hate him rite now.. but i can't deny that there still some more love left behind.. i still love u..(m i bodoh???) -_-"

the day i found out bout "that".. u really make me pissed off..what i'm thinking during that time was only to take a break.. between u n me..theres would be no more syg2... end!! tamat!! sadaqallahalazim!!! (geram nye mase tu Allah je yg tau) but u ask me to 4give u.. jgn tggalkn b.. bagi b stu lg pluang.. i juz keep on silent.. i dont reply ur txt.. kejam?? naaahh.. he deserve that.. not answering your call.. n after that "historical" day- hahaha.. takleh blah kan???but yahhh.. for me.. its my historical day! ..u keep on txt-ing me.. hoping that i would reply ur txt.. every nite.. i recieved txt from u.. even sometimes ur txt woke me up at the middle of the nite..n guess what?? i just switch off my phone.. u really hurt me sayang...                      (will be continue..)

i DO have one!

 

At last.. a blog for my own.. =) anyway, this is out of expectation actually.. nothing much to story bout myself.. but much to story bout things dat happen in my life lately.. juz creating this blog so that i'm not mumbling alone again.. yeah.. i've been crying alone a lot all these past days.. is this what we must adapt when we growing matured?? (instead of older) uhhhh.. its hard for me then.. even all things happen to jumble up n mess in their own way.. but Alhamdulillah.. i've faced all that with wisdom.. (thank you Allah) ^_^

Move in to Shah Alam is a new chapter in my life. All things i have to make it by my own.. no more to be pampered by the lecturers n many things that i learn n i started to realize that life getting complicated actually.. but juz go on with the flow n lets don make it more complicated. try to squeeze all the small matter together, put them aside n i should be ok.  Thanks to Allah for giving me great friends too.. yeah.. we've been through during good n bad time.. more bad than the good ones actually.. (ppppfffffftttt) lets left those the "bad memories" behind.. n start with the new chapter... can we?? haha.. 

Alrite.. now i spending my time at home.. most of the time actually.. so bored!! semester breaks juz started anyway but i already felt like its already been a year i'm spending my time in this place!!nothing much to do.. juz the same routine going on all days!! waking up late.. eating..watching tv.. lay on the couch.. messaging... n stay up late at nite.. (improving... not as late as the last time) haha.. i started to feel like theres no much different between me n the big fat orange cat- garfield! do u get it?? me.. garfield?? me.. garfield?? omaigosh!! is there anything more fun to do besides all this rubbish things? (guess what?? i scared if my weight will be double up very soon.. x_x )  please.. please.. please.. bring me out from this boredom. luckily i hav my own blog now.. =_=" at least something huh..