I loose to myself..

Rindu.. Tipu lah if ckp ta rindu... Tgn ni rse nk je switch on my phone back.. Tp, ble pk2 jgn la lemah sgt. Kuat kn pendirian tu! But I do really miss u sayang... Ape yg mampu aten buat? Since I woke up this morning.. I can't keep u off from my mind. Every single thing that I do remind me of u. Ta pernah2 aten tydo ptg kt rumah spnjg mule cuty nie.. Tp hari ni aten tydo. Tu je la care nk lpekn kjap dr pikir kn ayel. I ask abah to go to shasha's house.. Maybe when I spending time with my family, I will not think of u sayang.. Tp abah ckp dye nk tgok bola mlam ni. Tbe2 mama ajak kua mkn, abah pon stuju cuz kua mkn juz take for a while je.. So he won't missed his football match tonight. Emmm... I had chapati for my diner, tu pon ta habis.. Bg kt abah sparuh.. N today I had a very bad flu.. Asyik achhooo2 je dr pg td.. I don't know whether I get this cuz I cry badly last night or what. after solat isyak, aten baring kt katil, bke novel.. Hati sedeh.. Ble bce kisah watak dlm novel tu hepi, rse jeles sgt.. I wish I can take over her place for a moment. -tringin nk rse d belai n dmanje dgn yg trsyg. Every single scene dlm novel tu trbayang ayel. Ble watak lelAki tu pujuk c prmpuan, aten tringat ayel. The way that guy concern so much to that girl, there's no big different from the way u cares me. Again, u make me cry..cuz I do miss u! Rindu sgt2! N semua kata2 sweet yg ayel pnah luahkn kt aten flash back in my mind. I missed that moment so much! I miss u so badly.. But I'm the one that choose it to be this way. So, nk tanak.. I have to face this, no choice!! Ya Allah.. Tabah kn hambaMu ini menempuhi segala dugaan. Aku tau, engkau tidak akn menduga hambaMu jika hambaMu tidak mampu mghadapinya. Skali lg ku pohon ya Allah, biarlah ini sekadar dugaan Dan aku mahukan dia kambali brsama aku jika ini adalah ikatan yg Engkau redhai..amin.


p/s: miss F ta selemah nie.. ntah laa.. i need to make up my mind.. if ta berbaloi ape yg miss F rse ni better keep off all those feelings away kan??? gewdiks sgt nk bjiwang...